What I really want right now.

Title: What I really want right now.

Date: 02 January 2011

What I really want right now is maybe a few things…

1. Get to have YOU back by my side. I just want you now really. I know you would help me with everything and try to make me happy when Im sad. I need you. Even you shoulder is nice, for me, to lean on, cry on… I hope you would not be attached or not like me already, cause I very much want to fight for you back…
2. Going to Japan now, ALONE. I very much want to do this, now, ALONE, and just be there all by myself, with unlimited amount of money to spend and such. Just want to go to Ueno Park, the Imperial Palace park and probably the road from the fish market to Ginza area. Nice times where I could spend time all on myself, and alone. Other places that I would consider is Tokyo Disneyland and maybe also some places where has shopping, and Fujisan.
3. Staying in Singapore and going to Changi Beach ALONE also. Just want to sit there and listen to the sounds of the waves, crashing on the shores or the sand…
4. Someone who will ask me how I feel and care about me. I just need someone who would care about me now. I just feel perhaps demoralised and such now… I cant think of anything happy though I have perhaps lots of happy things that I could think about. Its just me, my own fault. Ive got no one to blame. Really.
5. And YOUR reply. Cos it means the whole wide world to me, really…. It makes me smile whenever I see your name on my “One New Message” list….

Yeah, so far can only think of 3… And I hope my left toe will recover soon… May end up have to see a doctor. If my leg were to get wrapped up because its far too serious, I would only want to sit on a wheelchair and not using the stupid crutches. I swear. LOL. And sometimes I really hope there would be people who knows how I feel at that specific moment and time. Really. I just hope there is someone who would care and at least think, of what I felt…