Trying every means…. <3

Title: Trying every means… <3

Date: 27 December 2011

Maybe this is my last ditch effort to do everything I could. I attempted to try. I came out with a rough plan. But everything just wont go to my plan. Maybe it wasnt meant to be. I guess so.

Morning, went to school for Orientation Briefing and everything. Yeah, went there with a super heavy heart. I can tell you, Ive been scolded like crazy for the past 3 days already. I myself is at a lost. And I quarrelled with my parents to get to the choir chalet, which was later today. But even if I went, the timing, is just simply too short for me to do anything. Simply too short.

Orientation Briefing and Kerin help me buy Ice Milo. She ended up treating me. LOL. Wasnt very fun and everything to me. It was abit boring. And I felt, Im just another person living and snatching the air on this Earth. Who dont deserve to be here and steal it from others. Maybe if its another person, perhaps it would have been better.
Played some games like a try out. And Im sure my parents wont want me to be even part of it. Im very sure.

Finished at about 1250. Had to go to Downtown East and meet the rest myself. Met them there before 2, and went to catch a movie. Named, “We bought a Zoo”. Boring movie. I nearly slept. My baby<3 (Maybe this is my last time calling her this if I do not do anything by today), and the rest was like playing inside the cinema. I wont really say it was a waste of my money. It taught me to do something crazy for 20 seconds, and this 20 seconds, may instead give you something of a lifetime. Just like the main lead, he did something crazy, and here it goes:
He was walking past a cafe, and saw a women whom he had, love at first sight. He took the courage for 20 seconds, and went in, told her that he like her. Its crazy. Yes, but he ended up with the reward that perhaps he hoped for. He got to be with this women, and they got married. However she later died (DK why), but they got 2 children, a boy and girl. The father then single-handedly raised them up. In the process of it, he wanted to shift to a new place, and ended up found a house of their dream. However, it comes with a heavy price. It was actually a zoo, or rather, it used to be a zoo. It wasnt really of a dream place, but they still bought it as they didnt mind the living conditions. Changes took place in the zoo, and many things happened to the people who managed the zoo and this new owner, and they later worked hard together, to get the zoo open again.

This is like a story, which really tells me how life is like, if one is to take the courage, just for a mere 20 seconds.

Finished movie, went to the chalet. Walked, and was like really in my own world, i guessed. I didnt really talked. Fine. Maybe Im not in the mood too. Then walked wrongly, but later found the road. Reach only at about 5pm. Then didnt go anywhere. Chiaki they all went cycling. I want to cycle, and to follow my Baby<3 but i decided not to. I just didnt want to like, go out. I felt deep, alone. Really. So stayed in the room and talked to Yao Kai. My first time that I really talked to him like heartedly. And he told me everything that he feel about his ex and such. Yeah i told him about me and her. But end up he told Yu Qian. Betrayed me a little.

Ended up having dinner at the airport. But I can tell you, my mind wasnt with me all night. I didnt know how else I could do to like save this thing. Im at a lost myself.