It just not easy for the first night

Title: It just not easy for the first night

Date: 29 December 2011

You are already 13 years old and 1 month.

Morning went to opposite school help to get Ice Milo for Munirah and Kerin cos both late. And myself for wakiing up. Then saw Emil and Nitta when walking to school. Went in with them and hanged the Ice Milo on the door. Then they came, and went on with the meeting, which was started off with the Junior EXCOs first. We tried to guide them along and tell them the stuffs along the way. Wasnt easy especially they came out with everything, and had to give them the credits for doing it.

Then in between gave 2 breaks, but I could not do anything to tell her anything that I want to say. So I planned out already actually. Get Kerin to help me out with this. Then I treat all the EXCOs, ICE MILO! Yeah, its like the official drink of the Prefectorial Board. LOL! Maybe can get Milo to sponsor us.
Lunch break got to talk to her abit. And managed to like try to talk abit to her and everything. It wasnt like the beginning. She was abit avoiding me initially… But lucky now not. I dont wish her to avoid me at all. Helped her pay for her tie deposit, and then help her tie her tie, making sure she got a nice one. I didnt want hers to look ugly and make her look stupid. It wont be nice. So now she officially got her tie, i really hope she will like it… Lots.
Nitta went to make like sausages outside the classroom while Niam Chin and Kai Wen went to buy over like 13 packets of Ice Milo for the EXCOs. Hope they like it lor. The sausages are okay.. Thanks Kerin jie for helping me get the food too!

After meeting that Ms Ong, then she dismissed the Prefects. Then Kerin helped me by giving the stuffs I wanted to give her. But it didnt go to my plan because Si Ying pulled her away. I very much want to tell her at this moment everything I just wished to say, but I cant. I very much felt like crying when she have all these with her. Very Very much.

Later went to return Prefects Room key and tried to look for Kerin, but didnt managed to, because I very much want to ask her many things, just to change the course of this. I dont like it. I very much want to be there for her and take care of her.
Went opposite with Yek Hong and Cassidy after putting my bag. Cassidy bought Corn something de. Then Yek Hong bubble tea and I treated Cassidy Ice Milo. LOL. Met Kerin at the coffee shop. But later soon left before I could talk to her, because, I wanted to ask if she could help me with more. Then went back to school. But I later went to the stairs behind the canteen there and sit for over 40 minutes. I thought and everything if I should even let you go freely on your own. Ive thought about many things too. And I realised whenever I see your stuffs on Facebook I would like feel faint or something.

Then saw Clement they all playing soccer. Join them after that. Save some shots, but conceded some soft goals too. Im not a very good shot taker, but just okay if I could be in the defence. Yeah as keeper maybe. LOL. Scored a goal which was assisted by Ashok. He passed to me and it was like a tap-in.
Went back with Munirah and waited below Chiaki’s block because Mu was going to home to take her charger… Then I tried to ask her come down or something. But its okay. Went home with an empty stomach and it was like the 2nd day of it already. And it was like, I didnt have an appetite to eat at all I must say.

At night, went for dinner and got scolded again. Then I didnt want to eat again really. I myself very much know how hungry I am, but I just didnt want to eat.
Was thinking about that issue during tuition through out, then I just felt like crying at time during tuition. Finished tuition I really cried. I very much know you still care about me. I very much know that you still love me, but you didnt want to say, and I wont force you, so you would be less stress. I know the feeling, because Im stressed these few days too. Im really stressed. I just hope that you would one day get back with me, just like the letter that I gave you… I mean everything I said, and I hope you would also read this blog post. I love you lots, and will love you always. I hope you would give me the chance, to take care of you and be with you, once again, protecting you, loving you, and showering you with lots of care and love. Pls take care of yourself. I love you always, and will always be. <3