Title: An uncompleted 2011…
Date: 31 December 2011
It seems like as if 2011 passed by very quickly, in a flash. And yes, my O Levels would also come in a flash soon. Shall really start working hard once 2012 comes, and perhaps give my studies my priority. Though I would still work hard for us to get back together, I hope you would allow me to have this chance to start working really hard for our future. Ours. Its not mine alone.
2011 will be a past once the clock strikes 12am tonight, and 2012 will come. 2012 will be another whirlwind year I guess. CNY will the first sort of major thing. But I wont be celebrating it, because my paternal grandmother has passed away this year. Then it will come with my Common Test, and then School Anniversary, and the Mid-Year. After this, it will be Prelims, and Graduation Day. And the final major thing for me, would most probably my O Levels. Its not going to be easy. But just like the saying, “As the going gets tough, the tough gets going”. It will be just like another 2011 I guess, a year which passes so quickly that I thought yesterday was the start of the year. It would just be like this. If we keep on looking back, we wont grow older or anything.
2011 is like an eventful, and a rather short yet slightly exciting year for me. Its a rather failure in the sense of academics and other stuffs for me, but its still more of a up and down year. Breakdown of it:
Jan: Orientation and everything, and then just the start of my life in the EXCO of the Prefectorial Board. Not going to get any easy.
Feb: CNY, and then have my Common Test. Badly done. But could only work harder, but everytime I would just put in my very best, only for people not to feel and think so.
Mar: My grandmother passed away. And its like a rather busy March Holidays for me. Going about to many conventions and such. Got to know a very good friend name Chiaki. And she was like the one supporting me everytime I need her. (I aint writing this because she is the person I love now).
Apr: SYF 2011. Got back a silver and we really liked it alot. We savoured every moment of this Silver victory, and shouted across the road to one another once we got the result. Something that I guess Im proud to get, in my only SYF because the choir wasnt that good before that.
May: MYE, and it wasnt that well done too. Then my this friend, Chiaki went to Beijing-Qingdao already. I got a fever on the day she left, and I could see she was really concerned. Wrote her letters, for one per day. I know her feelings for me, and I admit, I have got feeling for her already by now.
June: Holidays packed again, with SLC at Hwa Chong, TLFO with Temasak JC and then OBML with the school in Malaysia camping. Fun OBML, and I love every moment of this camp. Hard, but exciting. I confessed to her, before I left for Malaysia, most probably by email, and said I maybe like he.
July: Got a shock on 30 June, cause they said Audrey like me. But the thing is, I have not like her at all. I knew she like me though. But I wont like her. Chiaki confessed to me on the 1st July, 2:15pm. She like cried and said it was her sadest day because of this. But I asked for her to be with me, on the 03 July, cos I love her lots.. I hope she will rmb this moment. Our time together were mostly on Fri, when I stayed abit longer in school for Cher Day prep. She stayed with me, and help me. And 26 July, was the first time I help her hand, and really got to be with her, hugging her… 31st is also the first time i went for a concert with her, but it may prove to be the last too.
Aug: My first kiss, and maybe yours too. I gave it to you, because I very much want you to know, I love you…. You sort of first scolded me on the 31st, but then we still got together. I wont forget the times, u cheered me up, and made me happy thru many other ways. Our first month also, and you give me a super sweet letter filled with love and Rilakkuma.. <3
Sept: My birthday! Thanks to the over 300 wishes on FB, and your one wish is enough to make my day. Thanks for the sparkling owl u gave me. It was really sweet cos u made it for me….
October: Prefects camp, which we didnt like it. Got to sleep for the first time, with something I that belongs to u. Your water bottle. And it made me super happy… We shared the same saliva too, and you let me drink ur water…
Nov: Our first time going for a meal in a restaurant together, and got to hug u tightly to me in it.. I really like it. And it was my also my last time that I get to kiss you.. Was really happy that you were happy when you got your birthday gifts – the card and Korilakkuma, and i hope you really like it lots… Went to Japan for the first time in my life, and I went there, because its your hometown. And i really like the place lots.. I hope you enjoyed your this birthday…and liked it too…
Dec: The month where we seldom talk, and the month we broke. But I still hope we would be tgt soon again… I love u always.. The final month of the year, and it also tells me, Ive fallen out of favour in almost everything in my life. It only shows how fail I can still be.
This is probably a short short summary of what I have done this entire year.. Reason for writing it down here, so I wont forget all the things that happened and I wont forget why I did it. My memory is failing me. I dont know how much more things I can remember. I just wish that things I hope for and wished for, prayed for, would all come true. It just like hoping and wishing for all my dreams to come true. It wont be busy, but need some kind of hard work too. Ive been trying to do many things that I wished for this year, but somehow, maybe I cant accomplished all. Like I say, this year is an interesting year. Ive gone through many things and also gone through many things that I did not want. But I just hope everything would just be like ok, and continue to do things I wished to do.
Currently, maybe this is my 2012 New Year Resolution. Its better to write down, lest i forget it soon after…
- Getting good results for all exams in 2012.
- Winning back your heart and get you back with me…
- Making you happy and cute more…
- me being happy and doing things I really want.
- Get my own freedom and get to go to places on my own.
- More time with you, if I can
- Not getting into any type of trouble
- Just seeing you happy and,
- Getting good results enough for me to enter a good polytechnic
I just hope for all these. Is it too much? Idk. I dont wish to be sad already.. The list isnt in order, but rather is just like what I wish to do. Its 9 things. Just 9 things. And I hope I can do all these. Ive done everything I could this year already. Its to my best ability. So hopefully, it would be better next year. Really. I guess thats all I wish to say. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
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In my this last post of the year, I just wish that you know everything Ive said to you is true, and I want you to know I really mean it when I tell you that I love you. Im serious with what I say. If possible, I hope you would give me the chance to take care of you once again, and do my best to make you happy. It wont be easy to not have a little stress when you are in a relationship, but rather, is the love that I like. Im stress over other things when we were together, but Ive never been stressed when I see you. Or when I have your comforting words. Every of these little things just made me feel that you give me more and more love, giving me more and more care..
I will wait till that one day come, and you get back with me. It wont be easy, but I will do my best to win you back. Because I want to give you the love and care that you deserved, and the love and care that you should be getting.
Lastly, I love you lots Chiaki Baby.<3 Happy New Year! Just tell me about everything, because I will continue to stand by you, and take care of you.. And all these, are my lifelong promises, and guarantees that i wished to give you… <3 I love you, lots, and forever… <3
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